I guess you can say, that everyone that I’ve known left me… My supposed “friends” drifted away and never keep in contact with me. I’m completely fine with people leaving and coming into my life, because its meant to happen that’s the way its supposed to be, but YOU are the only one who has stayed. You stayed when everyone abandoned me, took advantage of my kindness and used me. You helped me realized what my “friends” were really doing, and how they weren’t my friends to begin with. You are all that’s left, the only one that stuck around through my bad days and good days. You have become so many important things to me, that if you left I’d go insane. You’re my best friend, my boyfriend, my lover, that shoulder to cry on, the voice of reason, my therapist, and finally my everything. Whenever i feel down, frustrated or upset, and you call everything seems irrelevant, and all that matters is you. All my problems and stresses go away when I’m with you and hear your voice. I get so calm and relaxed. You just bring my life bliss…You are the reason i smile and laugh.  

Ive been waiting for the longest time for my boyfriend, Anthony to teach me Jiu Jitsu, and saturday is the day i will finally roll on a real mat. He’s been teaching me some techniques and moves at his house but now i actually get to do it for real… I’m way too excited for this.

It seems like no body cares…

Who am I supposed to talk to if your the only that I talk to?

The worst feeling in the world is the feeling that you’re a burden to everyone. That you’re unwanted by everyone and the only thing you think is you don’t want to be here…

I want him. Bad.